who am i?

**Before I get into my story, I have to note, this page was/has been titled “who is he?” for over a year, but I finally realized why I titled this page as such.  It’s as if I was narrating from a third party perspective, hovering above myself, separate from past experiences.  Well, I think it’s finally time to change, finally time to reexamine the purpose of this blog.  It will be “who am i?” because as you read my story, these hardships, these struggles define who I am as a person.  Conversely, it’s not the struggles that define me, but rather how I have endured and overcome them.  Just remember, anyone can change, anyone can be renewed…you may be going through something difficult right now, but it’ll pass and maybe one day you can use your life journey to comfort and encourage others…

Some of you, maybe most of you, may not know this about me.  I’m tired of hiding my past.  I’m sick of neglecting and trying to forget what I’ve done.  We cannot hide or forget about our past, we must learn and not dwell on it.  A new life and reconciliation is only possible through Jesus Christ.  I want to live a life for God and put Him first.  I’ve been selfishly hiding my shameful history because I was afraid of how people would judge me.  But it’s not about how people judge me, it’s about how He will judge me when I’m standing in front of Him.

I‘ve always made it seem like I lived a perfect life, holding everything in, expecting it to be ok because it’s me!  I’ve always expected people to do the work and not me.  People would come to me, I don’t need to put in the work.  It saddens me to realize how my entire life I’ve been living this way.  I simply lost sight of myself and was neglecting Him.

The following is real, everything that’s happened in my life encompasses who I truly am:

I was born and raised, small town Northwest Ohio.  My entire life, I’ve been consumed by sports, whether it was baseball, basketball, football, or hockey, my personality has been defined by my participation in sports.

After high school, burned out from playing sport after sport, I gave them a break.  Instead, I was easily consumed by the lifestyle college offered, partying and drinking.  Intramural sports didn’t fill the empty void in my life.  Rather than pursuing these interests, getting drunk replaced the weekend sporting habits.  I consumed this new lifestyle as such, a sport.  I HAD to fill this void.

After getting hospitalized because of excessive drinking, my life took a turn for the worse, only temporarily.  Getting in a physical fight with my brother only made things worse.  Drinking was put on hold for the time being.

I fell back into the drinking lifestyle.  Not learning anything from my hospital experience, I turned to alcohol to solve my problems, with an annual birthday drinking rant continued to feed my enthusiasm and fun I was having in this new lifestyle.  Why turn back?  It caught up with me again.  Something happened and it wasn’t good.

It was something I’ll never forget and will always regret.  It was a bad night, where alcohol doesn’t lead to anything good, which eventually led to my incident.

Embarrassed of my actions and still unknown of what actually happened, I kept the incident from my parents, fear of getting ostracized, but more importantly, letting them down as their son.  I was also ashamed because everyone in my hometown would judge and make fun of me for my incident.

Of course, wouldn’t you know, things went back to normal.  After returning to school for the fall, drinking, once again became my outlet.  But this time, eliminating it from my life completely, it was only consumed in moderation because of course, I didn’t want to be ‘that guy’ in the corner not drinking.  Slowly but surely, the drinking lifestyle came back into my life.

With all the distractions and limited sobriety time, I graduated in four years, with a 3.0/4.0.  Who would have thought, a boy from a church going family, with great Christian, ever-supporting parents falling into such a lifestyle?

I‘ll tell you this.  It’s very easy to fall into these devilish traps because the devil temps us with temporary highs and pleasures.  As humans, it’s tough for us to look deeper and farther because the enjoyment is so ecstatic and addicting.  I became consumed by everything of this world, things that are superficial and finite.

After graduating,  I found myself back home, living with my parents, applying for as many jobs as I could find.  I found a local gym to get back into my sporting shape.  Four years of excessive drinking takes a toll on your body.  I needed to fill the void.

I found joy and pleasure in exercising and working out, something very close to sports.  As a result, I applied to the gym and got a job as a trainer.  I also acquired an internship for a minor league hockey team.  Juggling both jobs, my time was completely consumed.

Unbeknownst to me while applying, the gym’s owner, managers, and workers had an established foundation for Christ and lived each day for Him alone.  Beginning the day with goals and a prayer, everything began to point towards my faith with Him.

But instead of taking all of this to heart, the familiarity of praying brought me back to my childhood of Sunday school and going through the motions as a child, not fully comprehending the power of Jesus Christ in one’s life.  I continued to go through the motions for a year.  I still did both my jobs to my fullest and excelled at both, but my spiritual and personal relationships suffered.

Life tends to surprise us all.  All throughout the year after graduation, I had health issues, encompassing random, sporadic pains, I began to seek out help.  CAT scans, blood samples, urine tests, and a colonoscopy brought no conclusions to what was happening.  Once I thought my pain was leveling off, I had random pain in my male reproductive area.  Very eye opening, I immediately sought a urologist to determine what’s going on.

Fearful and beyond scared, just like everything up to this point in my life, I hated accepting the truth or my past.  I was scared of the results.  I didn’t know what I was going to do if I couldn’t reproduce to keep my family name going, become a father of my own children, or experience childbearing with my wife someday.

Finally, one visit with the urologist, the results came back and everything was fine.  It’s a common condition that affects a lot of men, but essentially, my prayers have been answered.  Beyond grateful of this, my life began to be put into perspective.

Wanting more, and knowing what is physiologically going on with my body, I had encouragement to seek out more formal education.  I took the beginning of 2011 to apply to graduate school.  Getting accepted in the summer, I found myself wanting to turn my life around and thought to myself, I’m finally going to do it.  I’ve taken everything life has to offer face to face and prevailed.

Notice what I said, “I’ve.”  No one else, but me.  My selfishness has encompassed all my accomplishments to be rewarded because of ME.

My hockey internship ended, leaving just the trainer job for the rest of the summer of 2011.  Expecting my fall enrollment for graduate school, completely living on my own, in a foreign state loomed in the background.  The closer it got, the more loneliness crept in.  Not knowing anyone at all, this would be a brand new experience.

Wanting familiarity in my life, I turned to someone that I let go shortly after graduating college.  I needed familiarity in my life before embarking on a new life-changing experience.  She has been there for me through all my rough times.  She has been at my side through the thick and thin.  Words cannot express how grateful and blessed I’ve been for her to be forgiving through all my ups and downs, even though my inconsistent behavior didn’t show it.

Skeptical of taking me back, she knew it’d be tough simply because of the distance.  This would be the farthest away we’ve ever been from each other, but with all of our memories we’ve made together, we got back together.  Shortly after arriving in a foreign state, I was hospitalized, not for alcohol, but for a throat closing incident caused by mono.  This was also an unknown and scary experience, but who else to help and nurse me, of course she was there by my side once again.

All the while, school started to pick up and I was able to keep up efficiently, also making friends in the process, not feeling so lonely anymore.  Also, eliminating alcohol from my lifestyle helped and encouraged success in the classroom.  But that was the only successful product of my behavior.

Living alone, you find yourself doing work and of course other things.  I found exercising and working out an outlet to fill the void in my life, since I no longer worked as a trainer, had alcohol, or sports.  I became obsessed.  I ordered personal training material to study to help people achieve their fullest potential.  The issue dwelled in the impossible.  I was always seeking out fitness articles, looking up fitness models, how they got to where they are, looking at pictures of perfect physiques, simply educating myself to be physically perfect!  Essentially, I was creating fitness workouts for almost everyone I encountered, always seeking out more and more each day.  I would awake every morning to scour bodybuilding websites for the latest workouts and nutrition information.  My life was being controlled by exercise and fitness.  I was letting my life be controlled by it.

The more and more my life was consumed by exercise and fitness, the more I became cold and distant from the only person I truly cared and loved for.  My life was empty and disappointing if I didn’t work out or have that fitness model girlfriend.  I simply was unsatisfied.  I wasn’t happy.  There was no joy or happiness in my life.  So of course, my option at the time was to break up with her.

I was cold.  I was hurtful.  I was every other adjective that you can think of.  I forgot about our past together.  Of all the times she was there for me.  You’d think after so many years, I’d have some regret or sorrow.  I didn’t.  My life could continue without her.

I was so wrong!  My life had been empty up to this point.  I was seeking pleasure and satisfaction in the wrong things.  I was putting my faith into illusory pursuits.

God wasn’t in my heart.  I lost sight of Him.  While I was back home for Christmas break, (this is December 2011 by the way) familiarity of being with family and the absence of her hit me like a brick wall.

An emotional tidal wave came over my life.  A spiritual tidal wave over came me like no other.  God was moving in my life.  I fell.  I wept.  I cried.  My heart tore open and every emotion I’ve ever felt came spilling out.  It was if I just awoke from a bad dream, only to realize it wasn’t.  There was something wrong.  My life has been torn because of my selfishness.  After seeking professional help, I knew I had to make things right with Him first.  I had to reaccept Him into my life again and be born again.  I have to take all the necessary steps and do everything and anything.  I asked forgiveness and to this day, I still ask Him forgiveness for my behavior to my family members, friends, to her, and to her family for my childish, selfish abandonment.

There’s not a day that I regret and feel pain for all the suffering I’ve put people through.  Through God’s will, everything that I lost: the trust, honesty, faithfulness, dependability, and sincerity will be slowly gained back.  I know this journey is going to be tough and unreasonable, but “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me”-Phillipians 4:13.  I’m willing and eager to change for Him.  I’m living a life for Him and Him alone for the rest of my life.  I need to reestablish myself with the people that truly cared for me, which I dismissed.  No longer am I using excuses, I WILL put in the effort to reestablish myself and live a life for Him and no longer will I be afraid of judgments.

My purpose is this: I’m here to embrace YOU!  I am here to offer you advice.  I’m here for YOU.

In those times of wanting to give up, like I have in the past, I’m here to accept who YOU truly are as a person, to aid YOU in your life.  Whether that’s exercise goals or workouts, spiritual healing, or relationship problems, I’ve learned the hard way.  I don’t want YOU to go through the same problems as I have.  We all experience hardships, we all sin, we all have problems.  Why go through these experiences alone? I have selfishly gone through life alone and it’s not the way to go, trust me!

It’s my turn to put the work in.  It’s my turn to help and to serve YOU.

“As each has received a gift, use it to serve one another, as good stewards of God’s varied grace”

                                                         -1 Peter 4:10

No more retreats, no more relapses, I will never surrender.  This is who I truly am!

Update May 2012:

Life is good, plain and simple.  Even though it didn’t work out with the person whom I mentioned above, God has other plans.  And I’m so excited for my future with Him!  God hasn’t disappointed , even though I had (and still) to travel through rough patches.

Life is flying by.  From already finishing my first year of grad school with a 3.94 GPA, to moving to Chicago for the summer because of an internship, it has been a spectacular ride of a new life.  A new opportunity to make things right with myself and with Him.  It is in Him that all of this has been possible.  Yes, there are times of inconsistency and times of question, but we always need to get back up after falling down.

This blog has been beyond successful.  It has taught me so much.  From staying consistent with my daily thoughts and scriptures, to helping/connecting with others.

You truly have made this something I didn’t think would catch on.

Hopefully, in my next business ventures, you can be the spark again!

Update December 2012

Gosh, I don’t know what to say, besides God is amazing!  No matter how busy, no matter how much has been going on, He is always the Almighty, always walking alongside me through the trials and tribulations.  With end of semester projects and papers, bachelor party planning for my brothers wedding, my dad’s hospitalization, graduation, moving, wedding, and applying for career jobs as well as my summer experience in Chicago, I’ve been overwhelmed with love and peace at heart to know I am in His arms, with no fear, no frustration, or regret.  Granted,  there have been some tough days, but everything is clear now.  All my selfish thoughts and actions were sinful, were demoralizing, were simply ruining everything I was as a man.  I was looking for comfort in the wrong things.  I was avoiding life.  I was avoiding growing up.  I simply wasn’t living the life God had designed for me.

But as I turned my complete attention to Christ again, not just on Sundays, everything began to return.  I was myself, I became new, my heart was softened to His grace and presence in my life.  What I was turning a blind eye to before and not recognizing, a new perspective has revealed so much about my past, not that it’s centered around regret, but living a life without Christ is truly a road to nowhere.  Take my word for it, please.  No matter the mistakes, whatever you’ve been through, He will renew your spirit, He will soften your heart, but you must be willing to admit your mistakes, repent, and ask for forgiveness, and begin to be filled by His love each and every day because without Him, we are lost!

It’s unbelievable how many new ideas and business ventures the Lord has blessed me with.  Honestly, I feel an amazing project is on the horizon and will take place in the near future, supported by FFE followers and I pray it can evolve into something bigger and better than my dreams.  I pray you can continue to show your support and respect, that we can together reach out to the lost, to lead them to an everlasting life in Christ Jesus.  It’s going to take a lot on my part for such actions to happen.  And I pray you can help as well because I wouldn’t be where I’m at today without all you amazingly blessed people, so please, with this next step, I ask for prayer and strength to fulfill God’s plan.

No more regrets, no more relapses, I will never surrender, in Jesus’ name, Amen!

Update December 2013 Coming Soon!

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47 responses to “who am i?

  • BrookeFitness

    That was an amazing story!! What an amazing journey you have been through! People who are on the path for change always have a background story and it’s so inspiring for you to share it! Drug and alcohol abuse are so common for people who are suffering inside and are lost and are just trying to deal with pain, I’ve been there! But what a change you’ve made! This has been such an eye opening story !! Keep up the good work!!

    • jthealthyfit

      Thank you, I really appreciate it. Sometimes I feel like it’s all a dream. Especially when I re-read my story, it’s as if it never happened or why would such things happen to me of all people, right?! But why dwell on the past when the only thing you can do is learn and move on. I appreciate the feedback and hope to hear more from you as well!

  • C.s@DrivingToHeaven

    Thank you for being so open and sharing your story to this level. I do not believe in mistakes or misfortunes, only life. However, I do believe that sometimes we fall away from what is important and God reaches for us, begging us to let him grab us up again, and bring us close to Him. The world is so full of temptations and sometimes people travel darks roads, and maybe, they travel them for a long time. Those are the people who need to share and be a re-born example for others who may have, or may be, going through something similar because they have “been there and done that.” Best of luck in your renewed journey! It sounds like God has focused and prepared you for it.

    • jthealthyfit

      Thank you for the sincere comment! I know it’s a very long read, so I appreciate you reading all of it. I felt compelled to share my weaknesses, my mistakes, because if we don’t come to terms with our past mistakes, then how can we grow? And it’s not until we’ve fallen multiple times or have gone down the dark paths, that we realize how much off track we were. I want to encourage and help others that have gone through similar things, just as you said, as a re-born example of “anything is possible through Him.” There’s a calling for all of us. I know my plan, my true path is waiting for me, and for you as well. Thank you for following and I hope God continues to move in your life as well.

  • Danielle Colombo

    Wow– I just took the time to finally read your story! It is truly amazing how far you have come along. You are on the right path now, and I have faith in you and can tell you have changed just by the positive attitude written throughout this. Thanks for taking the time to write all of this out — it is truly inspiring and can help many others suffering with similar problems by giving them the motivation to see they can change as well. I look forward to reading more of your posts and remember to always stay positive! *Life is beautiful*

    • jthealthyfit

      Thank you! I appreciate it very much. And it’s so important for us not to forget about where or what we’ve gone through. We all have our issues. We all have our insecurities. But it’s through all the downs we realize what’s really important in our lives. And it’s at this point we can help and encourage others who may be going through similar circumstances. My goal is to help and serve as many people as possible, however or whatever. Our purpose is to serve others and improve from one day to the next, always serving Him in the process. Thank you for taking the time to read my story. I know it isn’t short!

  • godshealingplants

    Greetings! Thanks for visiting my blog (God’s Healing Plants) and for your support and encouragement. You have a great blog yourself. Blessings.

    May this Resurrection day be a glorious day for you, as we remember what our beloved Savior did for us.

    “He is not here; for He is risen, as He said.”
    Matthew 28:6

  • Sarah

    Wow. Thank you so much for posting your story. It was a long read, but truly worth taking the time for. You have a very inspiring background, and it’s so refreshing to hear people take responsibility for their actions and learn from their mistakes. It’s hard to ignore Him when He’s screaming at you to make a change, huh?
    You have a wonderful blog here, and I’ll definitely be checking on you to see how you’re doing! Maybe even get some advice from time to time 🙂
    I know I don’t know you at all, but I’m glad to hear you’re doing better and are healthy, happy, that God is working in your life and that you are hearing him and taking action. You are an absolute inspiration.

    • jthealthyfit

      Thank you for reading my extra long story. Your words are very encouraging and inspirational in itself. It’s a rough road only when I look back on it. People pulled in or already into such lifestyles don’t even know what they’re doing with their lives. It’s as if you have a film over your eyes, and the only thing that could lift this film is God. I may not have those things in my life anymore, but they’re no longer needed to fulfill my joys and pleasures. Thank you for your comments and hope to hear more from you as well! God Bless

  • LexoKat

    This is an amazing story and if you got over everything, then you surely are an amazing person too! Glad everything is fine now and I hope they will stay this way. Great posts as well, I loved them all and I wanted to like them all, but then I realised that it will take ages. Keep it up and God bless you!

    • jthealthyfit

      Thank you very much! And yes, it will stay this way, with God’s strength. I lost sight of myself and life is so much more than just me. It really shows you how powerful God’s grace and how he can changes lives. And it’s through my circumstances, hopefully I can minister and help others through similar circumstances. Messages are so powerful when we’ve experienced them personally. Oh I know, I’ve made a vow to myself to write a post every day. Hopefully you can read them daily as well. And it wouldn’t take ages to read them all. It’ll just take some patience and maybe listening to Klove on the Internet and you’ll be fine. Once again, thank you for appreciating my blog. It’s much more than a blog and I’m glad you recognized that. Great to hear from you and hope we can continue these conversations. God Bless!

  • LexoKat

    We will continue these conversations and I will read your posts every day because I find them really inspiring! Keep it up!

  • antioxidantgirl

    Wow! Your story is amazing. It is sometimes so easy to stray from God with all the temptation and sin in this world. Your story is very inspiring! Thank you for sharing!

    • jthealthyfit

      Thank you very much! And we all need to be reminded these aren’t our bodies to please and trash, but the property of the Lord’s. Treat your body as though it was a Temple. Falling into these disastrous habits are not only detrimental to our physical and mental health, but also very sinful. Worldly pleasures and joys aren’t from God. They’re man created. Through my story, I want to help and encourage others who may be traveling/experiencing similar circumstances, because it’s never too late to turn it around with God’s help. Thank you for commenting. I truly appreciate it and hope to hear more from you!

  • healthnhorizons

    Thank you for stopping by my blog, and I’m glad you did! What an amazing and inspirational story. Thank you for taking the time (and courage) to post it. Best of luck in your journey 🙂

    • jthealthyfit

      You’re welcome! And thank you for taking the time to read my story. I hope we can both feed off of each other in the near future. You’ll always have support from me here. God Bless and best of luck to you as well!

  • Becca

    Thank you so much for following along with my blog!! God bless 🙂

  • NutriSpire

    Dear Jthealthyfit,

    You have an inspirational story and blog! Truly the good Lord is using your life in remarkable and amazing ways. Perhaps, in ways you don’t even realize and this is one of his mysteries, his love reaching out to others through you, so powerful!

    I thank you for your “like” on my post “Let’s talk about Magnesium” I truly appreciate the support!

    Blessings,
    NutriSpire

    • jthealthyfit

      Thank you very much! I am grateful for your support and encouragement. Yeah, I hope I can use this blog as a way to reach others because just like the Bible says, our purpose is to serve others, not ourselves. And it’s through my story I can relate and encourage others who may be going through similar circumstances. Hope to hear more from you and yes, I actually just started taking Magnesium. Already see a lot of benefits! Thanks for commenting!

      • NutriSpire

        You already are reaching people, and the good Lord is very proud of the work you are doing on his behalf, I am sure of this….

        I’m glad Magnesium is helping.

        I’ll come and visit again and keep up with your work.

        In Christ,
        NutriSpire

  • fitmentinfinity

    Thanks for stopping by my blog. I have to hand it to you brother…you are not only a man of faith, but a man of courage to put your feelings and beliefs out in the cyber world! Props and congrats my friend! I will subscribe and be back often. Many blessings….Griff 🙂

    • jthealthyfit

      Your welcome! I really appreciate your kind words. It definitely wasn’t easy, but with God’s strength, all things are possible. I’ve quickly realized there’s much more to life than yourself. And living life through an egotistic view is very unhealthy, which I’ve been guilty my entire life. As a result, I inadvertently pushed people out of my life, including God. So this blog is to help get people on track and also keep me consistent to my Faith, family, and friends. Thanks for commenting and hope to hear more from you as well!

  • godshealingplants

    Thanks for visiting God’s Healing Plants again. Hope your day is being blessed.

  • eatandgetmoving

    I’ve just nominated you for the Versatile Blogger Award 🙂 see http://eatandgetmoving.wordpress.com/2012/05/06/the-versatile-blogger-award/ for more info! XO

  • Marita

    Thank you for the follow. What an inspiring story! I wish you the best of luck with everything!

  • LexoKat

    Hey!

    I mentioned you here: http://lexokat.wordpress.com/2012/06/13/a-simple-quiz/

    I hope you are ok with it and maybe you can reply to it! 🙂

  • Andrew De Witt

    Your story is truly inspirational, more so because you have the courage to share it. Thank you.
    Andrew

    • jthealthyfit

      Thank you for commenting!! Yes, it’s been tough, but the only way I’ve been able to change is through Jesus Christ and my ministry/testimony is only powerful and encouraging to others only if I share it, only if I’m honest and true not only to myself, but everyone around me. I pray this will touch someone going through the same things because it’s never too late to turn it all around, with God’s grace, ALL things are possible! Thanks for visiting and hope to hear more from you!

  • talkkindnesstome

    God will bless you for your commitment to Him. Keep on your spiritual journey and stay close to the Lord. He will be your constant companion and source of joy.

    • jthealthyfit

      Thank you very much for your kind words!! He is and will always be a companion and source of joy! We always need to be living each day in the need, in the demand for Him, for His presence in our lives. Because I’ve tried to do it alone, I’ve tried it MY way, and boy, how I failed, how I was wrong. We’re suppose to go to Him. He’s suppose to carry our burdens. He will give us relief and a new life, but it’s only if we seek Him and want to change our lives! thanks for commenting again and I hope to hear more from you! 🙂

  • claudiajustsaying

    It is a very long read,I skimmed your story and believed I captured your story, So young and troubled by things that are not all your fault (DNA are strong factors) You’ve figured out early in life we are still responsible, and taken action. Please try to forgive yourself, The best is yet to be …just saying.

    • jthealthyfit

      Well thank you for commenting! You are right, there are some things out of our control, some things we’re fighting an uphill battle from the start, but the only thing that can turn it all around, is Jesus Christ. He’s the only one who can say, away with you temptations! With His will and His forgiveness, mending of my heart has been a process, but a process I’m willing to go through because in the end, I know He has meticulously designed all of this for a purpose, for His purpose! Once again, thank you for your blessed comments and I hope you can visit often!

  • Fitsploration

    Wow-I was completely consumed reading your story. It brought tears to my eyes. Thank you for sharing…you have a gift.

    • jthealthyfit

      Aww…thank you very much! And thank you for taking the time to read it all, definitely isn’t short, that’s for sure. I pray my story, my life struggles can be an encouragement to you and others. Without Him, we are lost. The more we pick up the Cross, the less we need of this world. We’re so stuck on doing things for ourselves, thinking we’re owed something, but we’re not. We’re not guaranteed anything, not even tomorrow, so why are we putting trust in superficial/temporary things? Or avoiding certain things bc we may fear the results? There’s nothing to fear when you serve the Savior who gave us life. Life is life though. We will make mistakes. We will fail. But it’s how we react and use these mistakes who define who we are, in Jesus’ name. Thank you very much for visiting and hope to hear more from you!

  • doctorlynn

    Thank you for writing this down. It was perfect for me to read tonight. This has been an especially interesting day…started with much consternation over current events/politics but I ran into a lovely man at the gym who had some words of wisdom and comfort for me. It helped my heart and so did reading about your journey tonight. Something about others witnessing unapologetically…talking straight…strengthens me too. God bless you and thanks again…

    • jthealthyfit

      Oh gosh, I don’t know what to say. You don’t have to thank me, but instead thank God. He has turned my life around and put it on my heart to share my struggles with others, so that they may not walk down the same paths. I’m glad He has used me in a way to help you, to strengthen you, to encourage you, so I really appreciate you taking the time to read my story. Even as tough as it has been, my journey is definitely dear and close to my heart, proving we’re never too far lost to be saved. Thanks for reading/visiting and hope to hear more from you!

  • Belkis Cardona-Rivera

    So happy you are in a better place right now. Thank you for sharing your story because I can relate. I know how college life can be and I have to say I was in the same place as you. When you wake up hangover in a stranger’s place, that is not cute or sexy. It’s sad and pathetic. It took a lot of will power to start saying no to alcohol. That’s when you know you have grown up.

    • jthealthyfit

      Oh yeah, it’s definitely difficult to leave such a “fun and exciting” life, especially how our society surrounds almost all sociable events around “going out” or “clubbin.” It was horrible, but I defined myself through how or what I did when I was drinking. In other words, I simply couldn’t have fun or enjoy an experience without it. But how wrong I was, and you found out the same thing. It’s a road to nowhere. So as you can tell, it filtered into and ruined everything else in my life. But guess what, I reestablished my faith and relationship with the Lord and I haven’t turned back! And you’re exactly right, it’s a very difficult, long journey of growing and maturing. Thanks for commenting and hope you continue to visit my blog!

  • ancafitness

    WOW, that was some kind of reading (I couldn’t lift my eyes off the text until finished) and what a story of God’s win over the evil!!!! I am very happy for you because I KNOW the peace and comfort God can bring to one’s heart. I wish you all the best from now on and be sure that every thing happens for a reason in our lives!
    Thank you for stopping by and liking my posts.

    • jthealthyfit

      Thank you for taking the time to read my story, it’s definitely not short, that’s for sure! Yes, God is our only tool against an evil world, filled with horrible things, ready to pull us down in a moments time. Thank you for the kind words of support, and I’m looking forward to what God has in store for you and your blog as well, talk to you soon!

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